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Today Is The Trigger

Today Is The Trigger

Most people would look at this picture and laugh. The lady at the grocery store probably looked at me, saw parents with two small boys and a grocery cart full of food and just chalked it up to motherhood. It’s not that. I woke every hour last night and kept checking the clock. Luke came into the bedroom this morning and said “when are you getting up? It’s afternoon already!” I shot up in bed, petrified that it actually was....

Our Final Days – Four Years Later

Our Final Days – Four Years Later

This is the last picture we have as a family of four. I was forcefully reminded as I started my morning commute today that this is the week I hate. The recurring flashbacks of those final days for our family, of what we thought was a normal week. Crazy mornings trying to get Toby fed, Luke dressed, ready and out the door for work and school. Schedules coordinated for pick-up and drop off of two boys. School buses making each...

Fourth Annual Random Acts of Kindness Campaign

Fourth Annual Random Acts of Kindness Campaign

Our Fourth Annual Random Acts of Kindness Campaign kicks off on Saturday, August 1 and we would love your help to Pay it Forward the entire month of August! We are focusing our efforts on doing random acts of kindness around the Pittsburgh region, where our family lives, works, and plays, as well as some virtual Random Acts of Kindness (RAOK). You can download the RAOK Cards below. These are double-sided, business card size, leave-behinds that you can use when...

Keep Me In The Moment

Keep Me In The Moment

I am having a hard week. Each morning. Waking up. Getting ready for the day. It is my season of grief, which is heaviest because these are the days, when Toby was here with us, four years ago. [caption id="attachment_2398" align="aligncenter" width="768"] Toby & Mommy - August 2016[/caption] I continue to think about what it would be like to have him here, with all of us. Three little sets of feet running around. A need for three swimsuits, instead of...

Looking for the Light

Looking for the Light

I’ve looked at this picture 100xs since Wednesday morning. I was up early and crying before I even lifted my head off my pillow. I miss Toby. I want to hold my son. I want to say “You’re four!” And see him smile or laugh at me. I want to hear him laugh. I want to hug him and not let go. May 27, 2016 Wednesday I sat on the couch and waited for the sun. I thought it would...

May 2, 2020

May 2, 2020

There are days in our lives that we dream about. Birthday’s Graduation’s Wedding’s Anniversary’s The birth of a child Memorial services Family Gatherings We all have them and prepare for them in our own way. Today was one of those days for us. I have struggled with emotions all week. Today has been special for 14 months. A day when our amazing family and friends come together to help us celebrate Toby. We had people coming in from across the...

Sunsets & Signs From You

Sunsets & Signs From You

We have seen some incredible sunsets over the last few weeks. Quarantine has my heart, among other things, missing Toby so incredibly deeply. I always feel like my heart can’t break any more, but it’s in the deepest places of grief, approaching the time of year when Toby was born and spent 12 incredible weeks with us, that I find that my heart, can and does continue to break. I was upstairs tonight helping Luke get ready for bed and...

#GivingTuesday – Here is Our WHY.

#GivingTuesday – Here is Our WHY.

We had a whole vision for #GivingTuesday, but life happened and our little one ended up spending the past few days in the hospital. As I was thinking about this campaign last night, my heart kept coming back to our life the past few days. So I will share our story - our WHY. Zeke, Toby's brother, started showing signs of a cold while we were traveling for the holiday. Not sleeping, fever off and on, runny nose, all around not...

A Tree for Toby and All the Infants Who Have Died

A Tree for Toby and All the Infants Who Have Died

Today was a special day. Today, in the company of the nursing staff and members of the Labor & Delivery Department from Allegheny Health Networks Forbes Hospital, we planted a tree outside the entrance to the hospital, in memory of Toby and all the infants in our community who have died. On August 24, 2016, we stood inside the walls of the Emergency Department of Forbes Hospital feeling completely broken. Our perfect world as we knew it had been broken...

Nursery of Hope

Nursery of Hope

Join the Nursery of Hope — a partnership between The Little Fox – Toby’s Foundation and Foundations across the nation — as we pay tribute to the precious little ones who have passed away prematurely of Sudden Unexpected Infant Death (SUIDS). We invite parents, families, and friends to plant a “Legacy Tree” during the month of October to honor babies gone too soon. According to the Centers of Disease Control (CDC), nearly 3,500 infants die each year for causes unknown....