When You Have A Child In Heaven

When You Have A Child In Heaven

When you have a child in Heaven you spend the night before Easter doing activities for him and talking all about him with his siblings. ♥️ Easter has by far been the most gentle holiday for my heart since Toby died. The first Easter without him Lucas had the flu and I sat on the floor with him most of the night. I watched the sun come up through the window that his tree is directly in front of and...

National Sibling Day

National Sibling Day

Today is National Sibling Day. 💙💙💙 Today I want to take a moment and talk about our oldest son, Lucas. Luke turned two 10 days after Toby died. Many people said to us, when we expressed our fear and anxiety for him, "He's too young, he won't remember or understand." Well, I'm here to show you - you're wrong. He absolutely understands and he does not miss a breath when someone talks to him, or us, as if he is...

Hold Tight To Your Umbrella

Hold Tight To Your Umbrella

This little guy is 12 weeks old today. While this should be a celebrated milestone, my heart is heavy, my nerves are frazzled and on edge, and the anxiety running through me is intense. This was the last week we had Toby with us in our arms. Just a normal week, in our minds. Not knowing the plans God had for Toby and our family. Not knowing the events that would forever change our lives in 5 short days. As...

Memories, Emotions, and Signs from Heaven

Memories, Emotions, and Signs from Heaven

These last few days have been hard. I thought I was emotionally ready for the New Year, but my gosh, was I fooling myself. It’s been a series of small things that stir my emotions. Unpacking gifts for the boys; putting new clothes away for a 4year old and an infant, knowing there’s years of clothes in between that should be here, but they’re not. Birthdays for our nieces and friends babies. Watching Zeke grow by the week and seeing...

Toby’s Memory Chest

Toby’s Memory Chest

A few months ago we decided to have a chest made for Toby to hold all of his special things that have been in the nursery for 2 years. We wanted it to be special and a place where we could collect things for him, from him, about him and about the Foundation, while also being a display piece, in his memory, in our home. Our hopes came full circle when we were connected to a very special and talented...

The Path of Transition

The Path of Transition

I've spent the last week swimming in baby items. Most of which were Toby's. The switch over of the nursery has hit me in waves. I feel joy & love in my heart in places that have been so broken and painful for 25 months, it scares me. Then the pain begins and the tears fall while every sense is engaged by grief - my eyes see flashbacks to certain moments when Toby is right with me; I can smell...

The memories. The grief. OUR journey.

The memories. The grief. OUR journey.

Today was a hard day. Pregnancy after loss is so hard. There is hope, yes, but the moments that need to happen before a Rainbow arrives are so challenging. I’ve talked before about how Toby’s room has remained the same since the day he died. Today, much of that changed. This is our choice. This is part of our promise to Toby, and to ourselves. To continue to move forward, but in a way that carries Toby with us, as...

Our Final Days

Our Final Days

This is the last picture we have as a family of four.   I was forcefully reminded as I started my morning commute today that this is the week I hate. The recurring flashbacks of those final days for our family, of what we thought was a normal week. Crazy mornings trying to get Toby fed, Luke dressed, ready and out the door for work and school. Schedules coordinated for pick-up and drop off of two boys. School buses making...

My Battle With The Beast

My Battle With The Beast

August holds my fear. It holds my happiness and feeling of wholeness. August is where ‘who I was’ lives and ‘who I became’ appeared. August holds my sons last breath. It holds my whole heart. August holds captive my sons future and every motherly wish I could ever have for him. As I stand on the doorstep of another anniversary, I have started to wander into the past, hoping to pull with me each and every moment, no matter how...

PSA: Spend the Money. Buy the Owlet.

PSA: Spend the Money. Buy the Owlet.

Over the past week, I have been asked multiple times about the Owlet Baby Monitors. Are they worth it? Should I spend the money? I’m on the fence about this monitor, but… What is unspoken is the BUT in each of these instances. But, I don’t want to have to worry about my infant while they are sleeping. But, I don’t want to have to continually check if they are breathing. But, I don’t want to have additional anxiety overnight...

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